Taking a leap into the unknown-

I have always been a reader.  When I was little I would carry my books around with me like they were babies and to me, they were.  Each book has a story in it that you can escape to.  It was a window into a new world, one that was very different from reality at times and sometimes strangely similar to my reality.  Either way I was hooked and they helped me understand the world better.

I have always wanted to be a writer, to be able to capture people’s imaginations and attention like all the authors I admired.  I always loved fantasy novels and I have always wanted to be able to make up my own world and the things in it.  I can’t tell you how many times I have tried to learn more about writing and actually sit down and figure out what my story would be.  What I have learned is that I can jump into other people’s worlds quite easily, but when it comes to creating my own world I have completely failed and been unable to write a coherent word.

Having given up that dream I started thinking about my own life and wondering if I could make it interesting enough for others to read and identify with.  Could I be honest and write down things that I was afraid to admit or tell anybody?  Should I write anonymously so no one knew who I was?  What if what I wrote offended or upset somebody?  Could I come up with an entire book about my life being that it is not that exciting?  Probably not.

I discovered blogging reading others’ blogs.  This I might be able to swing, I thought.  I identified with their entries and felt like this is something I might be able to accomplish and not just think about.  One worry is that I do not have a wide group of friends, my group is small and limited so who would actually read it?  Does it matter if anyone reads it?  I finally decided it doesn’t matter in the end.

What it essentially boiled down to was I need an outlet.  I have really begun to feel the need to sort out my thoughts and emotions and for me the best way to do that is to write it out.  Ultimately it doesn’t matter who reads it or if anyone does, it just matters to me.  So here I am, venturing out into something I am very unsure about but I am determined to get out of my comfort zone and change things up a bit.  Will I be crushed if no one reads it?  Probably but I will live.  Now I just need a name for it and the balls to post it on FaceBook.