Spiraling….

At this point in time life should be great! Husband has a brand new job with an amazing company with great pay and benefits!! While I am slowly losing my mind at home and walking around sucking up all the negativity around me. There are several days a month that I feel completely overwhelmed and […]

NORMAL??…

“No one is normal. They just look that way from across the street.’ Look, I am not perfect. I have so many flaws I cannot list them all here. I can be selfish, jealous, angry and stubborn. But I can also be loving, caring, selfless and empathetic. Nobody has all these qualities at the same […]

The Landlord & The Neighbor…

So I wish I could say that life is amazing right now but there are a few complications I need to get off my chest. We moved into a rental house that is in Midtown Ruidoso right off the main drag. Since we are in town now we feel safer from fires and the house […]

THE SUBTYPES OF NARCISSISM

I recently wrote this paper for my work at NEST, the Domestic Violence Shelter here in Ruidoso. There are several subtypes that I truly believe explains some of the issues our country is dealing with today. Please read it and see how it applies to the people in your life and how they behave. It […]

THAT DAY…

Right in the middle of our life, on an ordinary day, the unthinkable happened. Everything went from ordinary to chaotic, and there I stood, in the mess of it all, knowing there will now be a before and an after. That day. 06/17/2024 It has been a year since the fires in June of 2024 […]

I Am Not Okay

I am not okay.I’m barely hanging onI’m losing track of daysAnd losing sleep at night.I am not okay.I’m hanging on the railsSo if I say I’m fineJust know I learned to hide it well. I woke up todayI almost stayed in bedHad the devil on my backAnd voices in my headSome days it ain’t all […]

Turmoil…

You would think with all the turmoil in my life since the wildfires on June 17, 2024 I would be tuned out and ignoring political news. Sadly, I am still locked in, I cannot look away actually. I have written a post or two about my feelings on the election or current policy. I try […]

South Fork and Salt Fires of Ruidoso June 2024

Friday, June 14, 2024: It was another beautiful day in our amazing mountain town of Ruidoso, New Mexico. I took the day off of work because my parents were coming into town and I had not seen them since August 2023 so I was really excited to welcome them. We had chicken tortilla soup and […]

Ozempic and Mental health

“We can’t hate ourselves into a version of ourselves we can love.” Lori Deschene When I was young, I never really thought about my weight. I was blessed in that I was naturally skinny for many years and that is just how it was. I took it for granted that I would always be that […]

the greatest love story ever told

I cannot ignore a truly epic love story! There have been many over the years and I can clearly remember the highlights in my head, Dirty Dancing, Say Anything, Jerry Maguire, Titanic, the list goes on. When Dirty Dancing came out in 1987, I was 12 and I wanted to see it so bad, however […]