The Corona…

I am not one to freak out easily. When I first heard about Covid-19 i was like, what’s the big deal? However, being older and wiser, I started to slowly freak out. I am a lifelong smoker and after my last 2 surgeries my blood oxygen level was so low I had to get oxygen treatments. Why haven’t I quit smoking? Look people, I quit everything else, I have to have one vice, give me that please. I know I should quit and you reminding me will not help.

But the corona scares me. Who wants to slowly suffocate/drown by themselves in a hospital room? The fever, body aches, chills, loss of taste and smell? I dont think I realized this before now but I dont want to die. Fuck that. I am being extremely cautious because of my parents. I am grateful both of mine are alive and I want to keep it that way. This is the first time in my lifetime that I have been very worried for their health and they are probably thrilled because now I call every couple of days to make sure everything is good. If I could put them in a bubble I would. I feel like a protective mother calling to make sure they are behaving but I love them and need them here as long as possible!

My dog has never been happier than he is now. Dad works from home but Mom normally doesn’t. For the past 3 weeks he’s had both of us. Brett’s in a bedroom and I am in the dining room so we are separate and at first Baxter was confused as to who to stay with. But he’s gotten used to it and splits his time between us. Have no doubt, when I go back to work he will have a nervous breakdown! I am not going to lie about the fact that once an hour he nudges me with his nose for some lovin’ and it is such a stress reducer! I will be very sad when I have to go back downtown again. He makes me so happy! I can’t work without him now!

I’ve spent a lot of time at home and in our backyard. I don’t mind being at home so much but I miss shopping, dinner with friends and getting my nails done. But I cannot complain, my bills are paid, I have plenty of food and a home to ride this out in. I have a husband and a dog for emotional support, family and friends to talk to over the phone and my health. So many people are suffering that sometimes I feel so raw, like a wound that won’t stop weeping but I try to remember that I am one of the fortunate ones and to be grateful for every moment.

Stay home!! Do it for the vulnerable and the weak, the one’s without support, the forgotten, the elderly but most of all, do it because it is the right thing to do, as a human being. It requires so little sacrifice but can change someone else’s life. Empathy is an amazing thing! Use it! I hope that you and yours stay safe and that we all come through this stronger!